Holy cow :) where do I begin???

I'm back home but just for a few hours. Check out my videos on youtube to hear my updates. I have more videos to come but will upload them later when I recover :))) My surgery went okay. I had it in the morning at 8 AM, I had no pain at all, wow I was suprised but in a shock that all was so quickly over I had to cry. The surgery lated for about two hours but I was sleeping for another hour before I woke up.

I'll write more about it later. I don't have much time .. damn it :) but I'll be back soon!

I'll write you soon! Check out my new videos on youtube :)

two more nights and then .... ugh

Wow!!!!!!!!! .... !!!!!!!! excitement??? yeah .... fear???? yes .... I don't know where to begin or what to write... so many things are going on in my head at this moment...
So.. I'll just copy and past what I wrote somewhere on fb...


I almost forgot that I told the staff at hospital to order it in brown color ... all this seems so unreal right now. I guess I'll believe it when I'm there =) and it doesn't really matter NOW but in 3-4 weeks after the surgery... when I'll get this thing. I'll be a cyborg in a few days *lol* I just gotta love it as I s...o love computers :P and I didn't even go to church today because we went swimming this morning, so I'm bit nervous *lol* why ah well, I feel saver when I go there and say my prayer, but tomorrow is another day where I can pray :) .... during the day I feel good but when the night comes and I'm in bed, when I close my eyes aaaaaaaaaaaaaaagrr =) then I see some very intersting pictures :P that's why I don't even want to go to bed (joke) :) what if it doesn't work? I only have this one ear where I used to hear so what if??? (-.-) That's why I was procrastinating with that surgery for a long time. If I had two functional ears I would have said yes immediately. It's like someone who has only one eye needs a surgery on that eye ... hm... I know it will go well but I don't know it feels so " I can't believe it" :)

My calender takes shape

Wow, when I look at my calendar I have strange feelings coming up.... 52 days roughly until my surgery... Can I still run away? *lol* just joking, I won't do that, nah... I cannot believe that in two weeks it's already June. Okay, slowly, slightly I am getting excited and nervous. In a way I still cannot imagine all this, how it is going to be, what feelings I will have, how I will think about this, how the recovery process will be and all this. (O_o) I'm thinking too much.


What is good about all this is that later I will hear, it will take me time but I will. I do believe. I only hope that I will not get in this dark mood if I don't immediately see the result. I must hang in there and it will get better and apart from that, the other thing that is good is that I can WRITE POETRY about my exprience of being hearing impaired / hard of hearing and soon being wired!!! :O


That's amazing. I'm proud of that. (^.^) After one year it's quite addictive (did I say it right?) and I can't seem to stop. I want to write more and more and increase that number where I am at the moment. I know this picture doesn't fit into this title but I couldn't find the one with my calendar, where half the days are almost crossed out - next time ;)

Where is the surgery date?

If I'm not mistaken I have 57 days until my surgery... wow, somehow I am coming closer and faster to that date... than I expected. I wonder am I not required to do some blood donation for myself? You know, donating my own blood that will be given to me during the surgery?? Duh.. I'm thinking too much. I know.. btw, in two days I'll have my last vaccination which is required for the surgery and then I'm done and can wait for day zero to come :o ...
Can you see this little "stripe" what is it called this little "bracelet" which I got from the hopistal? Can you see it? Yeah... I kept that, yes... it reminds me of that time so I'll leave it in this box for some time. In two weeks it's already June, wow :/ how did that happen!! Time is passing by very fast, too fast sometimes and too slowly other times. :)
I'll keep this here short as I have to go to work very soon!
Thanks for reading!

Last time listening to my ipod | before I get the implant

I was listening to my iPod. It was a strange feeling knowing that this will be the last time that I'll hear naturally with my own ear, this year... and without a hearing aid before I get the implant. I increased the volume, it was already very loud, to its very maximum so that I could hear and I did hear it a bit. What a strange feeling. I'm going to write about this as I want to remember all this. I'm not sure if I will miss it but if I don't record it I will never know. Soon I will get wired. What a strange feeling. I'm not scared but just thoughtful. The day will come soon when I'll be excited and worried *lol*


I don't have much to share right now. I feel blocked to write some poems so I'll try to find a way to overcome this writer's block ... :) I feel a bit tired and I didn't sleep well last night. I need some inspiration. I tried to write something today but it just doesn't sound good and I have stopped before I actually started, no I stopped after the second paragraph :)


I only did a back up of my files and anything on that list I haven't managed to do :) There's time, maybe next week. Weekends are just so short and I don't feel like making a video right now and I'm about to sort out my poems but I just feel so tired and I'll soon stop that. I didn't sleep well last night. I need to be a bit more in the flow when I do this but I do feel good today. :) Just a bit tired. I want to be published before I turn 30 and I am sure it will happen, I already came this far and I'll show that it IS actually POSSIBLE!! wow, what a great thought, eh? :)))) I hope I'll write some more today, I'm not sure, I feel very tired right now.

Thanks for reading! :)

Next vaccination for the cochlear implant due in 2 weeks

Bionic Poetry Girl, May 08, 2010

What a boring weekend! *lol* Okay I won't complain, it could be worse. I want some more excitement and I want to be a published author!!!!!!!!! I will become one, I WILL :) It just takes time. In the meantime I'll keep writing. I need to build up my amount in case I won't be able to write one day.. *huh* scary thought! :)

Okay, here's a short update. I had my vaccination last month against "meningitis" and in two weeks I'll need my second shot :) The vaccination procedure went very well and I didn't have any side effects from that. Okay I did. I had a bit of head ache an hour later which I think was because of the vaccination but later I felt better. I'm not someone who likes to get a vaccination. I don't like the side effects that some of the vaccines have ...

67 days until my surgery ... wow, .... am I nervous??? Huh, well right now I don't have the time to be nervous :) but I am thinking about it very often, how can I not when I have this calendar on my wall and see it every day :) I wonder how I should use this time that I have with my old hearing before I get the new one. I want to keep notes of those two months before a new journey begins, somehow I feel stuck. Anyway, I have more things to write about but let's keep each new post separate!! Will write more later!!

My to-to-list for this weekend

Hi there!! It's been a long time.. I know. I'm quite suprised that I'm still awake *lol* because I'm awake since 6 AM and feel quite tired right now. Just thought to quickly post something before I call it a day. ;) It's been a long day. I will write more over the weekend. I removed my last blog because I was not so positive and didn't want that to be there although I would have loved to hear your comments. Never mind! More intesting stuff will come soon, if I only have the time to post it lol, I feel so tired..... thanks for reading!